Yesterday, my grandma fell and broke a thigh. Her physical therapist found her on the floor of the kitchen, after having to enter through the back door because my grandma didn't answer the other two. Apparently, the house smelled of natural gas, too. And for some reason, my aunt Liz and uncle Lito didn't think there was anything worrisome going on when Grandma couldn't associate names and faces properly. She was even forgetting my cousin Jesse, who's always visiting her. Bleh. My dad's probably going to go visit and make sure things are going ok. I dunno what to think. My family has always been very distant. When my dad left home at 18 and was in bootcamp, a buddy of his got more letters from my Aunt Liz than my dad ever got from anyone in the family. They just kind of forgot about him. And still, they forget to call when important stuff happens usually. And they've been to Dallas and San Antonio several times without telling us. Actually, Liz and Grandma lived in San Antonio for a little while, I think. Didn't really say anything about it until they went back to El Paso. Meh. I wish I was closer to family. I love my cousins but I don't know them, really. I haven't seen any of them since... 1999? Something like that. Maybe it was before then. I don't know. I almost wish my mom and dad would have stayed in El Paso so I could have grown up with my cousins and grandparents like my cousins did. I'd know Spanish, at least. That would be nice. When I have kids, I want them to know their cousins and extended family better than I know mine.

Even on my mom's side, I don't really know my family. Everyone moved to different states when they grew up and there's never really been a point made of getting family together on a regular basis.

My dad asked me if I wanted the number to the hospital my grandma is in. I wouldn't know what to say. She probably wouldn't remember me. She didn't even acknowledge the invitation I sent her for the wedding. Nothing. No card or anything. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I suppose I should call her or write her once in a while but I don't know what the point is when she's never made much effort to be part of my life. What exactly is the proper etiquette there?